December 19. Storms.

Storms rolling forth, circling their prey. Rolling and rumbling, emitting sounds of anger. Waiting for the right moment to unleash its ferocity upon the onlookers below.
Great patience is needed for such a task. . . Minutes pass by. . . still keeping those waiting, expectant. Finally, word comes and the storm, capturing unawares, unleashes the beast within. leaving nothing behind but a tumultuous wake of chaos to any who may have survived.
The storm dissipates, as if nothing was once there, nothing that could have ever caused this much damage. The survivors didn't know what hit them. All that was once chaotic is now calm and beautiful.
Dumbfounded, how could something this bad have ever occurred? They never would have thought something this devastating could have happened to them.

10 December. A whirlwind of chaos

There seems to be an antagonist
in the front door to my facade.
Coming to extort my sanity;
breaking me down to the last few threads
that have somehow managed to hang on.
Making me more vulnerable to the stress
of the antagonism and other stressors of life.
Evoking unwanted emotions,
merging with pleasant feelings.
concocting a whirlwind of mental and physical chaos.
What is going on? Why won't the antagonist
cease his attacks?
I wish only to be left alone
with some from of peace and my sanity
to move on with things of happier light.

Please retreat from this facade,
and leave me in peace....

10 Dec. Anyone there?

It seems that I've got these enormous holes in the road to my future;
concealing me from that which I want most.
What are they? Where'd they come from?
What is holding me back from crossing this first one?
I'm afraid I'll be consumed by the vast enveloping darkness.
I can vaguely see what could be on the other side;
It could be worth falling down and failing a few times for,
to see what it could be, and what may be.
I really want to run, and jump over this vast pothole
but something is making me hesitant of reaching this goal;
this worthwhile object.
Why can't I just do like others and just go for it like there's no yesterday.
What is it going to take to conquer these fears of mine?
How can I overcome this hesitancy?

Will there be anyone there for me?